limbo
ever felt like you don't know what to do with your life? you have lots of plans but can't do it because nothing ever goes YOUR way? i'm definitely having that episode now.
i hate to admit it but, i've been idle for about a year now. yeah. a year. it sucks, really. many are envious of my situation. they're envious of my having not to worry about anything... my staying up and waking up anytime i want.... my not having to cram for exams or being sleep-deprived because of school or work. i love cramming! i love being sleep-deprived! i hate not doing anything! believe me when i say it's NO FUN. no fun at all. i'd trade places with you guys anytime!
not doing anything makes you depressed. being idle makes you feel like you're totally worthless. that no matter what you do or try to do, it still makes you feel you're not working enough.
i've hit dead air. i'm in limbo.
i hate life.
i hate me.
i hate me.
i hate to admit it but, i've been idle for about a year now. yeah. a year. it sucks, really. many are envious of my situation. they're envious of my having not to worry about anything... my staying up and waking up anytime i want.... my not having to cram for exams or being sleep-deprived because of school or work. i love cramming! i love being sleep-deprived! i hate not doing anything! believe me when i say it's NO FUN. no fun at all. i'd trade places with you guys anytime!
not doing anything makes you depressed. being idle makes you feel like you're totally worthless. that no matter what you do or try to do, it still makes you feel you're not working enough.
i've hit dead air. i'm in limbo.
i hate life.
i hate me.
i hate me.
posted by cLaude at 9:03 PM
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hi claude i dnt knw if it the right thing to say...bt im pretty much relieved when i read this entry...relieved because we share the same exact sentiments and scenario. a year na rn akong bum e (though iv tryd to apply to other companies ng mga naunang months this year)...and i tell you its not a great feeling at all. i really dnt knw why many people envy me so much. when para sa akin, ako ang mas naiinggit sa kanila. they have something to do with theirselves. mapa-school or work man un. i had so many plans din before but, alas, walang natuloy coz i chose to obey my parents na pumasok sa clinic ng tito ko. and it turnd out nt good. wat more, di ko na naisakatuparan ung plans ko. nw, sana im on the right track, then maybe saka ko na lang ulit ta-try tuparin yung mga plans na un. isasantabi ko lng muna sila bt i wil make sure na magagawa ko pa rn sila in d future. dnt wori claude, and dnt hate urself...though i must say i used to hate myself din...bsta i knw it will all work out for u din, luk at me. ;)
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