procrastinating procrastination

im the BIGGEST procrastinator the procrastinating God ever made. maybe that's why i was born a lil bit late than i should've because the procrastinating God procrastinated on me.

i haven't done anything i was supposed to today. and i got lotsa things i should've. i procrastinated and procrastinated and procrastinated. was supposed to do job calls today.... WELL THAT DIDN'T HAPPEN. mall.... THAT DIDN'T HAPPEN TOO. clean my room....OH! THAT, TOO. pfft.

it's now crystal clear why i have a very very very uncertain future. i used to blame it on events, people, and well, fate. now it's clear. no need for explanations. i got the most stubborn-EST ass ever. (yeah. tautological, aint it? emphasis needed. thankyouverymuch.) im neilarmstrong-ing my way to success. and it's scaring me.

what the hell happened?! i used to be all i-need-to-do-this-NOW and procrastination-doesn't-exist-in-my-dictionary. but now i'm like, i-could-do-that-later and that-aint-needed-yet-so-i'll-just-do-that-some-other-time.

i want my old self back! i want it back NOW!

ugh.