and i, have been rejected once more....

me: oh, hi. uhm... do you have plans on saturday night?
him: anong date yun? (*muttering to himself*) 21? tpos sa 2* birthday ni *** tpos sa 2* si.....
him: anong meron?
me: ah... eh... (*hesitates for a moment and then...*) invite sana kita. videoke party ni *******. i'm allowed to bring a friend... one friend. eh since i haven't seen you for the longest time, i thought of you. so what do you think?
him: uhmm... kse... (*still muttering to himself*) eh kse di ba birthday nga sa 2* tpos yung isa sa 2*... MAGPAPRACTICE AKO MAGBAKE NG CAKE... eh kse exams pag blahblahblahblah.... lhat naman ginagawan ko ng cake. tanong mo pa kay ****...
me: (*interrupting mid-sentence*) ah, ok. (at the back of my head: LAHAT?! asan yung cake ko?!)
him: sorry talaga kasi alam mo naman.... blahblahblahblah explains some more blahblahblahblah...
me: ok lang. no worries.
him: *still blabbering away*
me: no. seriously, it's ok.
him: explainexplainexplainexplain...
me: HEY! STOP! I SAID IT'S OK. YOU DON'T HAVE TO EXPLAIN COS IT'S OK. REALLY. WHY ARE YOU EXPLAINING ANYWAY?! BZZZT. STOP. SHHHH. DON'T SAY ANYTHING. IT'S OK. (*all these while he's still explaining on the background*)

"magpapractice ako mag-bake ng cake."

wtf?! no, seriously. what the FUCK?!

i would've appreciated it more if you were a tad bit more honest and told me that you don't want to go because (1) you don't wanna be with me. (2) you don't do videoke. (3) you don't want to go with me. (4) you need your rest cos hell week had just left you like a rotten banana. and... did i say "you don't wanna be with me" already?!

in fairness to you, that one's really unique. nothing like anything i've heard before. and to think im the queen of rejection! i cannot think of anybody else who could pull off something like that. yeah.

i know. it's my fault. it's ALL my fault. i screwed up. and i screwed up BIG TIME. that's why i'm trying to make up for everything. all the stupidity, idiot-isms, moron-ness and whatnots. i hope you're seeing all my efforts though. cos im really trying. im trying really really REALLY HARD to at least bring something back. to bring at least a lil from what we used to have back. and it hurts that reality's kickin me in the ass, HARD, with you not even realizing that im putting the heck of an effort. im trying yet i still SUCK at it.

boo me.


*******
im the worst friend. EVER.