scalpel, sutured, made whole again

"you can only be in a bad mood for so long before you have to face up to the fact that it isn't a bad mood at all... it's just your sucky personality."
- megan afferty, Sloppy Firsts

definitely hit home. my depression isn't brought about by the weather.. or the lame ass people i come across.. or that icky cold pizza i ate when i craved for it last night.. nor is it brought brought about by my destiny. i'm depressed simply because i have a sucky personality.

my personality is sucky. my personality is hated, nay, despised by a lot of people. nobody likes me because of my personality. my personality makes me do a lot of things i shouldn't. it ruins everything. i don't get things my way because of my personality. my personality is neither good or nice, therefore, it is sucky.


*******
now i know why.