sorry for being such a big girl's blouse.

so we saw this movie, "If Only," today and i can't believe how much effect it has on me.

yes, it's a love story but not your typical, cliche, a-dime-a-dozen mushy flick. it's about a guy who loses his girlfriend to a car accident right after they had a fight and almost breaks up, gets a chance to relive the day all over again.

oh... ok. so the plot seems like the cliche kind. but u hafta believe me on this. it's a good, GREAT even, movie. couples, friends,and singles alike should watch this. especially those who think love is just for sissies, and wusses, and a whole other names you might wanna call em. and oh, for those couples who doesn't tire of arguing endlessly too.

one thing that prolly made me love this movie more is the fact the i could relate to samantha andrews (jennifer love hewitt). not that i'm in a relationship right now. it's... it's the way how she looked at love. how she thought, one should love.

at one point, her boyfriend, Ian Wyndham (paul nicholls), tells her that he knows that their relationship is on the rocks but he got to talk with a cab driver (i know, weird) about loving and relationships and he realizes he wanted to, "soldier on" and that he really adores her. sam got back at him saying that she didn't wana "soldier on" and that she don't wana be "adored" but "loved." she said it with so much conviction it almost made me wanna call this one guy and..... oh ok, i shouldnt've gone there.

although at first you'd think the boyfriend was an ass, he definitely made up for it on the second half of the movie. ah... to find a man like that would definitely be the greatest thing. the scarcity of 'em is what makes them all the more special. so if you think you already have one of 'em... never let him go. or hold onto them until you can, at least.

LOVE.

what is it

how do you love?

how should you do it?

is there a right way of doing it?

when do you know it's the real thing?


so many questions and i've yet to find the answers.


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"i've loved you since i met you but i wouldn't allow myself to trully feel it until today. i was always thinking ahead. making decisions out of fear. today, because of you... what i've learned from you... every choice i made was different and my life has completely changed. and i've learned that if you do that, you're living your life fully.
it doesn't matter if you have five minutes or fifty years. if not for today... if not for you... i would never have known love at all. so thank you for being the person you taught me to love... and to be loved." -ian wyndham, If Only