anything you say to me TAKES ME ONE STEP CLOSER TO THE EDGE...

you know you're getting old when radio starts to play the songs you know, love, and have memorized by heart on days when they play OLD songs.

for most stations, it's wednesdays. for others i think, friday. so there i was at the back of the van half asleep earphones to my, uh, ears when rx started to play "rollin'" by limp bizkit. i thought to myself, it's a wednesday why the hell are they playing THIS song when they're supposed to be playing OLD songs???

and then it hit me.

rollin' is AN old song. it was new when i was in college. fred durst was famous when i was in college. (i dunno about now, i havent heard anything about him in ages.) limp bizkit kicked major rock ass when i was in college. WHEN I WAS IN COLLEGE. darn. and like adding insult to injury, they played "one step closer " by linkin park after. wuuuuuuuut?!

i keep forgetting that i'm almost 23, out of college, and already working. i keep forgetting that i no longer ask for moolah from the 'rents (although sometimes i do when i could still mooch something from them. yeah. that's bad. BITE ME. :P) and anything happening to me now isn't necessarily influenced or decided by mum and dad.

sigh.

why don't i feel like i've grown then? 22. darn. i feel like im stuck at 13. still clueless about alot of things and going about stuff on my own isn't helping at all. i don't feel i've matured in any way, much less grown indepedent. it may look like i am, but seriously, I'M FREAKIN' NOT.


*******
i have A SHITLOAD of issues you can't even imagine.
SERIOUSLY.